Hearing other people’s uncensored opinions of you is an unpleasant reminder that you’re just another person in the world, and everyone else does not always view you in the forgiving light that you hope they do, making all allowances, always on your side. There’s something existentially alarming about finding out how little room we occupy, and how little allegiance we command, in other people’s heads.
Kita bisa terus bermimpi. Lalu bangun mengejarnya. Jangan lupa, saat berlari kencang, kita meninggalkan beberapa hal ke belakang.

Setelah sekian lama bersembunyi di balik kesan sibuk dan alasan lainnya sehingga mengabaikan tumblr ini, sebenarnya hanya ada satu alasan kenapa terlalu lama diam: melupakan Esta.
Kegilaan obsesi tentang sesuatu yang abstrak itu tak baik, pikirku. Tak lama kemudian aku menyangkalnya. Lalu meneguhkan pernyataanku lagi dengan alasan seperti, “Cita dan impian itu abstrak. Cinta dan daya yang mewujudkannya. Maka tak perlu takut memiliki asa.” Esta, kau tahu ia telah dan akan ada.
Esta..ahh sudahlah. Semampuku, tak lagi kubebankan ribuan kata tentangnya.
Tumblr ini sesungguhnya berisi tentang buah pikiran, terkadang khayalan, atau isapan jempol belaka. Tapi percayalah, aku menikmatinya, sedalam sruputan kopi pagi pengawal hari. Hahaa
Baiklah…sembari menyiapkan tulisan, aku memutar Brighten My Heart yang dipopularkan oleh Sixpence None The Richer. Beberapa hari ini aku suka mendengarnya berulang-ulang. Sendu dan penuh harap. Doa.
Kau tahu, sebab tak dapat kita genggam sendiri telapak tangan kita, sekuat apapun.
Salam damai.
Asal netes ki opo? @sudjiwotedjo
Studies have shown that, across the pay grades, women who weigh less are paid more for the same work and have a better chance of promotion than those who are heavier. In politics, in business and in the arts, accomplished and powerful men are free to get fat and sloppy, but women can expect to be judged for their looks if they dare to have a high-profile job: we’re either too unattractive to be tolerated or too pretty to have anything worth saying. Beauty is about class, money, power and privilege – and it always has been. Women and girls are taught that being thin and pretty is the only sure way to get ahead in life, even though this is manifestly not the case.
Rasa itu selalu hadir meski kita tak selalu mampu menyadarinya.
Meniadakan cinta itu hampir sia-sia.
Yang mungkin adalah, rasa itu mengendap dan tertimpa hal-hal baru. Sesungguhnya ia tak pernah bisa hilang.
Kita mungkin lupa. Tapi rasa yang mampu muncul kembali, adalah ada.
It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days…Lightly, lightly—it’s the best advice ever given me. So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly, my darling.
